So now, in preparation of my big adventure. Everything seems to come at once. I am starting my own business. But not just any business. It is the business of my heart, my dream, my baby. So it has to be nurtured, taken care of and protected! But for me, I also need to know how to put myself with my baby out there! In an authentic way.
Aside this, I need money! I believe that the universe is working for everybody, as long as you have faith, if you believe. I really trust that things have their way of working out.
But still; I need money. So I have decided to leave my home, my sweet place, my peace, my sacred stillness. Take my kids, known as Pini, Lila, Lotus and Nootje and go elsewhere. In this way, I will safe some money for the sake of being able to live my dream. And my dream in reality is: going back to Nepal, where I left a peace of myself, where my heart lies.
Didn’t know I would sacrifice it all. And on the other hand, I always knew this about myself; that I would give and do anything, to follow my heart and live my dream. And my dream lies on the other side of the world.
It pains me to put my animals through this process. I have feelings like guilt and sadness. Yes, it all is part of living my dream. Not only happiness, but also insecurity, not knowing, wondering if I am making the right decisions. As every mother I am very protective of my children. My children are my animals and they mean the world to me! Who am I to put them through these troubles of moving to places? It is difficult. But the only thing I know is that I have to live according the rhythm of my heart and listen to the song my heart is playing. So to get there, is to leave my house right now, safe some money and then…. I’m like a bird, I only fly away… (Nelly Furtado).
If you keep doing the same things, you will keep on getting the same results. So I have to change my ways, to get different outcome, which will lead me towards my goal…. And make my dreams come true <3.